I offered my deepest apologizes for being absent to my readers. Over this past week, I went into a deep depression. I have been struggling about my daughters. After my oldest daughter returned from being around her sister, I could tell there was something different in her attitude towards me. She started defending her younger sister about certain issues. I sat there quietly while I listened to her opinion. Inside of me was starting to shake and I sat on my hands to keep from her seeing how upset I was or I would start crying. I didn’t want to spoil what precious time we had left together. I promised myself then to not say anymore about her younger sister to my older daughter.
My youngest daughter has always been a master manipulator. Now she did it to her older sister. This hurt me dearly. I went through keeping in the house and sleeping long hours. I felt like I was drowning in a sea of tears. Then I got up my backbone up and stopped feeling sorry for myself. I knew it would take a few weeks before I could shake this hurt. I am on my medications. I thought about checking myself in the hospital if I didn’t start turning around with my depression. I prayed to God to lift this depression and help me with the stress that is affecting my diabetes blood sugar readings.
I believe I am on the uphill now. Please keep me in your prayers and
thoughts.
3:22 pm
Been missing you however no apologies are necessary. Glad to hear you’re doing a bit better. Will definitely be sending prayers and good thoughts your way!!
9:34 pm
Shirley,
Sorry for what you are experiencing. I guess I would simply encourage you to start making sure you are taken care of.
One time last year, I had a little “fallout” with my youngest and then my oldest defended him. (they were in the wrong but thought they were right) I was devastated and depressed also. But then I realized that this will happen in my life sometimes and that they will have to walk their own journey…whether they are right or wrong.
I’ve learned I can’t help them like I used to when they were younger and that now when they have a problem or when they are talking about needing money (manipulating), instead of my usual parent advice, I’ve decided to ask them one question..”so, what are YOU going to do about that”??
That way, it turns the issue back to them and they realize that mom is not going to “save” them anymore. This way, they couldn’t manipulate me if they wanted to because I’m not playing their game. Time for your daughters to know you are a great mom, but you are not playing the “game” anymore.
If your younger daughter needs something…like a ride to work; she’ll have to figure it out herself. Not from you, then she’ll have no way of manipulating you. Your health is more important right now because someday they’ll get older and realize how badly they treated you. (I already got my apoligies…but I didn’t help with the car problems)!! Hope you don’t mind my 2 cents worth, you know it comes from the heart. take care.
9:27 pm
Brenda I appreciate your two cents worth! You are a true friend always and I love you my friend! Taking care of myself more is becoming more of a priority for sure right now. Your mom to mom advice is great about not playing the game anymore. {{{{HUGS}}}}
9:30 pm
Been missing you too Sherlock! Thanks for the prayers and good thoughts!:) Sure got a lot of catching up to do, especially reading your blog too!;)